Stuck In Between a Rock... and nothing

I hate this feeling of being stuck. Like there's no direction that I really want to go in but I also don't want to stay here.
I need a new job but I don't want to start looking again and I don't want to work during the day which is lame of me and I need to suck it up.
I need to follow my own advice and realize that he's just not that into me because even though I know this I don't want to move on because it's easier this way in some ways.
I need to start acting like an adult instead of calling my mother everytime I have an issue. I have to learn to rely on myself and trust my own insticts.
And I need to write... I'm just so stuck on everything else that I haven't really sat down to write since the week before I graduated and that's pathetic considering I went into all this debt and I am living in NY to do this, to try and get onto the right path but I can't even put pen to paper... or rather fingertip to keyboard.
It just feels like I'm in a room where there's no door out... looks like I need to get myself a motherfucking sledge hammer.